A post write by ppl but i feel is saying me~ ♥

一個人臉上太多的笑是因為心裡有太多的痛

總有一些人，他們看上去整天都很開心，嘻嘻哈哈的，
沒有煩惱，像個小孩，他們會說玩是我最大的樂趣，我很喜歡玩，
我什麼都會玩人多的時候他們臉上總掛著笑容，好多人都會羨慕他們，
然而這其實是他們最悲哀的地方，他們不想讓別人看到自己難過的一面，
更沒有能力一個人獨處，因為當夜深人靜的時候，
他不知道一個人會發生什麼事，坐在窗前冥想走過的點滴
沒有人讀的懂他們，想著想著貌似快樂的他們就會黯然流下一臉的悲傷，
然後自己對自己說：「其實也沒什麼，命運吧！」
所以他們就整天逼自己笑，以此來逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦!
他們貌似很堅強，因為在別人看來，他們什麼事都能微笑著去面對，
他們長著世界上最脆弱的心靈，只是長期的偽裝使得別人很難發現他們內心深處的創傷。

他們其實非常孤獨，雖然看到他們時都是在跟一群人談天說地，那是因為他們實在不能承受一個人時的折磨！
他們只想簡簡單單、快快樂樂的活著，期待並且相信每個人給的笑容都是真心的，
希望身邊的人都是真正的喜歡自己。即使別人小小的意見，也會另他們難過好久，
他們真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜歡。因為，他們總是為別人想的很多，
對別人總是比對自己好; 把能對喜歡的人好當做幸福，喜歡別人比喜歡自己多。
他們總是那樣，前一秒還傷心的流著淚，後一秒出現在朋友面前的時候，
已經滿臉溢著燦爛的笑容。有人說他們是向日葵，是的，他們在意的人就像是太陽，
在面對太陽的時候永遠是明艷的花瓣，而太陽照不到的背面，那悲傷藏得那麼好，不願被看見。

他們嚮往放縱自由的生活，卻必須為了誰很努力的朝另外的一個方向活著，很累很累，
卻仍是心甘情願。離自己的夢境越來越來遠，不得不面對從未想過的爭奪和複雜，
恐慌、不知所措。只有面對最信賴的人時，才會卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼淚。
因為在他們心裡，笑就是開心，哭就是難過，接近就是喜歡，遠離就是討厭。
但其實不是，他們明白了，心好傷，眼淚就沒忍住。
哭過之後，笑笑得擦乾眼淚，說，沒關係，我可以做的很好的。
他們好像無所不能，好像總是不會有煩惱，好像什麼問題都能輕而易舉的解決，
總是喜歡喜歡出現在流淚的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗著笑。而面對自己的問題，
他們卻茫然無措，面對自己的悲傷，他們只會躲在人們看不見的角落裡慢慢由傷口越裂越大。

他們的想法非常簡單，說出來的就是心裡所想的，肚子裡不會拐七道八道的小彎，
無心的話可能會引起別人的誤解。所以，請別記恨他們，他們從不願傷害誰，小小的錯誤就能讓他們懊悔很久。
他們其實非常單純，甚至你曾經給了他一個微笑他也會一輩子記得你的好，
因此他們的世界觀其實也很簡單，他們很容易受蠱惑，請不要輕易的傷害他們的感情，
因為一旦傷害了，那就將永遠彌補不回來。如果你身邊有這種人請你給予他（她），
那怕是鳳毛麟角的那點關懷，讓他（她）知道這個世界沒有拋棄他們。
哭得笑了，笑得麻木了，傷得痛了，痛得也麻木了。以前的命運可能已經注定，以後的命運相信能走出自己的路.

因为是你~♥

如果一定要问我
为什么要跟你在一起
因为你是我认定的

因为在我开心的时候
我会马上想要跟你分享
因为在我难过的时候
我会想要你的一个拥抱
因为在我发现一个好地方的时候
我会特别特别想要告诉你
因为在我睁开眼的第一时间
我会希望就能看到你
因为在你难过的时候
我会希望我能在你旁边
给你一个大大的拥抱

因为我总会幻想
和你在一起生活的日子
因为你的习惯爱好
在某天就在我的心里

因为再难过的时候
只要想起你
我就会更有勇气
因为我已经把你当成我的家人
因为在你的面前
我可以变成一个孩子
因为再冷的天
想到你心里都可以暖暖的
因为在晚上很安静的时候
即使一个人
想到你
我也会有幸福的感觉
因为我能感觉到你的存在

因为你的名字
是我在心里
默念千遍的名字
是我在草稿纸上
一遍一遍写下的名字
是我可以在很遥远的地方
就能认出的
是我所喜欢人的名字

因为你是我义无返顾
要在一起的人
因为我希望你幸福
希望你的幸福是因为我
因为你是我认定的
因为是你……

你不懂的事♥

你不懂
我一天看你的资料多少次

你不懂
看到你的个性签名一换
我就开始胡思乱想
你不懂
上网跟你聊天
都会开心的大笑出声
你不懂
当我一上线
看到你不在线的时候
是一阵失落
你不懂
当所有人都说你不好
不适合我的时候
我就只是说了一句“我喜欢”
你不懂
每天晚上上线
就为了等你一晚安
你不懂
因为你的一句不可能
我付出多少
你不懂
因为那是你
所以我倍感珍惜


你不懂
…………
我爱你

等待。。。

等待不苦，苦的是，没有希望的等待…

曾经 ,
愿意不顾一切地等你 ,
愿意随时随地陪你 ,
愿意在你身后默默地看你 .

为你的快乐而快乐 ,
为你的悲伤而悲伤 .

尽管 , 那些情绪 , 与我无关…

Tired Day ~♥

24 Sept ♥

Today almost get lock at college and can bak home... T.T me and clarin was sitting at ict lab choosing cecilia birthday album d pic... when we finish den we heard to door are closing... We rushing to keep our thing to bag and run out... when we run out to lift there and the door alr close... We tot we cant bak home alr.. very very scare coz the whole college lik no ppl alr... how we noe the guard hide at the lobby there n scare us... lucky we saw him if not we cant bak home alr... we planning tonight no nd to slp alr.. coz have to rush out the present... hmm.. how i noe i jus draw the winni the pooh alr use few hour... the conclusion of me is winnie the pooh r hard to draw than Crayon shin chan.. Tired of it den 4 am lik tat oni go slp...

25 Sept ♥

Wake up very early and continue to make the album... when i finish bath and start to work on it... cecilia suddenly call me n tell me she reach my house and fetch me alr.. Oh godly... I have to stop everything n go out with her.. and hide all the thing at clarin house... 2 of us was stupid tired to do it... After reach cecilia house den we continue to go SMKTC to donate blood... i tot tat i cant donate n i jus go thr n try... How i noe i can make it... and me n clarin lie to the nurse tat we r enough slp.. acually we jus slept 4 hour oni... n i havent eat my breakfast... the conclusion of all of tis + lack of blood go donate blood is very very tired and will faint... dun even try to do tis anymore... After blood donation den we went to fun ok celebrate birthday with our dear cecilia... This year we bought a cute little pooh small cake to her... Finish celebrate it den go to clarin house continue work with the birthday album... hmm... tired tired... go for movie wif clarin, alan, alvin, sushi, shen tong, ah how n angela... movie finish alr den we went to popular to buy thing... how we noe.. clarin cheong tis BIG HEAD LOBSTER drop her phone n reach popular oni knew it.. alan bong vry fast den go bak to cinema find it... lucky tat he found it for her... hmmm... if not duno how alr... me n alan get shock from her alr... phew... ntg happen... den go bak to clarin house contine our work... 2am almost finish to work it n mammy reach to fetch me home... den planning tat 2molo morning have to finish it and delivery to cecilia...

26 Sept ♥

Today i almost fall slp when im having my driving lesson... lack of slp + lack of blood + havent have breakfast.. im sleepy on it... hmm... lucky no accident no fall slp n safety drive bak home... when im reach home den slp for 99 ... afternoon tat time vry bik cik becoz of cant find cecilia... sms her din reply oso... after tat clarin come my house at night take the album n bring it for her... she saw it happy until almost cry... ^^

My BloOd....

Starting to faint...

 

 

Outgoing with my Ji Mui ♥

Today morning 11 am Julia told me tat she going out to fetch Novem after that den come n fetch me... but i wait alr 1 hour she also havent come to my house den i keep call her oni knew tat she wrong way alr cant get to Novem house... and she lost alr she duno wer r she at... lucky she find the signboard and follow signboard back to cheras...

Finally she reach my house and fetch me... ^^ We start went to Jalan Yap Kwan Seng de Full House... But reach there alr we cant get in becoz it having maintenance so close for 1 month.. Den we need to change our plan... We thinking nd to change to go KLCC or Pavilion... den we decide to go KLCC but we lost the way to go... we tot we can reach KLCC alr.. but a the end we wan go pavilion den we found the way to KLCC....

We walk walk walk and find wat we can eat... Hmmm... The last decision to us is eat at Madam Kwan.. Dim Dim DIm... After we order our food den we start to take picture alr... finish our food we din go gai gai den straight away go garden and take picture... We use 2 hour to stay at garden n take picture... after we finish take our picture den we went to leisure mall wait wai leong... while we waiting we go to pasar malam and take away our dinner and eat at car... 

Next round we are going to I-City... There jus special of their light only.... Jus can take picture and nothing to play alr... Walk walk walk and take take take den we go for 1 restaurant name of orange... We go in at buy ice cream eat... sit at there have our ice cream and chat with them.... After we finish it den we going to end our outgoing and went home.... ^^ 

Sunway Lagoon ♥♥

Me and pei pei wake up at the early in the morning 6.30am... den we 2 wash up den we wake nicole up n wash up... the last will be vun ling... after we " gao tim " everything den we go boy house to find them.... but they all still slpping... jus few alr wake up ready all the thing... we wait them get ready den we start to go sunway lagoon... ^^ we have our breakfast beside sunway and ahtan meet us at thr... 13 of us are rock at sunway lagoon ( Me , ahtan , nicole, vun ling, shin pei, liching, gary, tien shia, ah bui, wilbert, marco, lawrence and ah ben ) ...

While we waiting to enter to lagoon Lawrence , ben , ahbui n wilbert was looking at a small cute girl... and they wan to take picture with her but scare the daddy scold them... At the end they oso din take pic wif her...

 The 1st game we play is pirateship.. but jus 6 of us going to play tis... coz all of them are scare to play it... after tat we got play 360 turn de clock , scream park, snake, flying fox, waterpark, motor and many many game...

The scream park was vry scary.. i went in be4 i tot is ok not so scare but i duno why all the thing oso change alr im super scare... all of us jus close our eye shout oni... lucky it very fast den finish alr... ^^
After flying fox den we when to swam alr... hmmm... its lucky nothing happen go on... coz i duno how to swam n i scare on it... 

The whole day at sunway lagoon play alot of scary game... becoz of ahyew... wat she oso wan to play but no ppl play together with her... den i accompany her to play.... Many thing not dare to play oso play alr...

The lagoon wan to close alr we oni go to bath and go bak... We play in lagoon when ppl open until close... Damn geng... but vry vry tired... after tat they say go eat steamboat but thr have many ppl so we cancel it n go bak hostel eat at mamak... pity ahyew give marco scold tat din line up at steamboat thr...

All of us is tired lik hell alr... i have to stay at vun ling house 1 more day... becoz vry tired n no transport bak home... ^^

13 of us... =)